last night i spoke with my cousin on the phone and he put the fear of god in me. i thought i was doing okay with my training. he asked how many miles i was up to. i told him 165. he said, no, what is the longest ride you have done? i said, like 8 miles? silence. i said i was on track to have a few hundred miles done before the actual race. a heavy silence. "i kind of feel like i'm behind?" i said.